As my mother died, she said "There is no more one since you ceased, a simple sound ... Almost, it was her message to stop living in fear.The life is yours Do not allow the story to write, make your own story.
Most of us live in several types of fears: fear of success, fear of failure, fear of shame, fear of standing, fear of not being like, fear of abuse. Fear sucks your life. Fearlessly, despite my seemingly lifelong perfect life, beautiful husband, beautiful kids, successful business, exotic travel, great cars, the country club's lifestyle, my existence diminishes. Ideal couple. "I now know that it is not a warning sign for that title, but a compliment.
During the last year of my marriage, I nurtured a new independence, new interests, friendship that was unique to me, which was not developed under me. Life got perfect, my confidence reappeared. I was confident that it was not related to important items or public performance. Trust has come from me, and I had to offer the community. My voice was forged through the community service and helped those without voice.
My voice was weak and timid at the beginning. I was between a powerful woman and her daughter. Like me, the stars were rising. The youngsters of the cello played football in Austria, and they were playing football in Austria, family members assigned to the army, lawyers, state track stars, doctors, lawyers, state attorney general, successful entrepreneurs, and I was there. Hello, I am playing tennis and it does not work so well. And that is it. Fear paralyzed me. I could not think of what I did or what I did. For many years my role was neglected. I was embarrassed and my mother's words rang in my head, the world will not be defeated when you go, take the risk.
My girls and I accepted the qualities of this organization, volunteered a lot of time in the community and played the role of leadership. Philanthropy was always a motivator, but this was different. For the first time, I felt that there was a lot of difference in the lives of young women in the organization. Regardless of self-acceptance, I was a role model of many of these young women and mothers. I was elected the president of the group. I had never imagined something like having a leadership qualification or providing a national organization, leading impressive young people, leading a strongly independent women's leader.
Slowly, I lost my fear. My independence has been expanded, but I was still trapped. My ex-spouse backed me with my back-to-back compliment. I was so fed up that I was drawn to the drama that I always knew and thirsty. He insisted that connection with my charity had taken his time from him. I do not want to give up on the newly discovered life and I tried to send a double life. My activities (philanthropic activities, conferences, tennis, my friendship) all occurred from 9 o'clock to 5 o'clock. When I came home, I devoted my time to him. This ate my core and I began to notice the physical change. When I was awarded a successful woman and was awarded the prize, I walked confidently and had a high step and head, but when I was in front of me, I was actually I was walking my ankle.
It is easy to blame others for your own success when you are living in fear. It is easy to live in shadows and other people, making yourself second is easy.
Fear is still a part of my life, but a small part. Now I recognize fear, accept, release that it is there, and take bold steps. Even though I am not here, the world may continue spinning, but I know that there is a positive difference. Today I accepted gratitude and mantra that it is the first day of my life, better, more satisfying life every day. What is your final mantra?
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